Body dysmorphia affects queer men in nuanced ways, and while we can't unpack every single element - we're going to give it our best shot! Some guys experience body dysmorphia through muscle dysmorphia - sometimes called 'bigorexia' where the adoration of bigger bodies can become more than a erotic fascination, but a driver in how we perceive ourselves - sometimes with negative consequences. Spencer Colt rejoins us to talk about his experience, and how our image can sometimes be tied to schoolyard bullies, and if we push ourselves beyond our limits we could just find ourselves halfway up Mt. Fuji with a double patella dislocation. Now, not all experiences of body dysmorphia are under this umbrella - so we want to hear from you. If you've experienced some form of body dysmorphia we'd love to hear form you. Be that slender guys, chunky boys, tall or short guys - anyone who feels their body doesn't match up with what their brain thinks it should be. Spencer last joined us during our OnlyFans content creator episode Spice Guys and the Sextra episode that followed We talk in non-explicit terms about domestic and intimate partner violence, so if you need some support head to joy.org.au/support Thorne Harbour's ReVisioning and No To Violence's resources on men's behaviour change programs might be useful, and check out Safe Always supporting LGBTIQA+ people experiencing violence Spencer is online over at Instagram at @spencercolt_ This episode was recorded on the lands of the Yalukut Weelam clan of the Boon Wurrung peoples. We pay our respects to their elders, past, present and emerging, and acknowledge that sovereignty was never ceded.