A Sneak Peek at what is to come. Here is your first taste of what is to come in The Dichotomy Diaries. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church. Instagram: @TheDichotomyDiaries & @manda.miura TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: @TheDichotomyDiaries

Here is your first taste of what is to come in The Dichotomy Diaries. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church. Instagram: @TheDichotomyDiaries & @manda.miura TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: @TheDichotomyDiaries

The Official Trailer for The Dichotomy Diaries premiering October 10th, 2023. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church.  Instagram: @TheDichotomyDiaries & @manda.miura TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: @TheDichotomyDiaries

Dear Diary (& Listeners), There is nothing more difficult than losing a loved one.  The pain one experiences when they can no longer hug, kiss, smell, confide in, and share life with a loved one is unlike any other.  Imagine experiencing this pain abruptly. There's just one difference, your loved one isn't dead. They ran away, entirely aware of the pain they knew this would cause you.  How does one manage the stages of grief and the confusion intertwined in such a malicious act- at the hands of someone they trusted?  It's fucking hard, but it is possible. I am proof.  This inaugural episode of The Dichotomy Diaries is called The Sin City Serpent. You will relive with me; meeting the Mormon/Latter Day Saint (LDS) man I married. We will dive into the spiraling, dark world where his career choice lived. You will experience the love-bombing, narcissistic tendencies, and financial abuse and manipulation first hand. Together we will dissect how deep trauma bonds are formed. And how trauma responses can look different for everyone.  You may find yourself, like me- asking these questions... Why does she offer love to those who treat her so poorly?Why does she exhaust herself for the sake of others' comfort?Why does she anchor her "home" in another person rather than within herself? These questions and more will be answered throughout Season One.  If you're looking for "The Tea", you have come to the right place. Every episode released will get you closer and closer to the center of what just might be, the cruelest love scam of all time. Stay tuned for surprise BONUS episodes featuring special guests and the highly anticipated upcoming episodes featuring the NINE WOMEN who DICK got to first; and how all of this was unknown, until now. If you're looking for an amazing story on True Crime, Narcissistic Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Financial Abuse, Manipulation, Sex Work, and Spiritual Abuse. You're in the right place. Brace yourself, this is just beginning.   With Truth, Courage, and Pain, Amanda Arnier, MLS   If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Music and Sound Production: Ashley England Podcast Website: www.thedichotomydiaries.com  Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries  TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary (& Listeners), I had a profound realization this week.  It's easy to view all that has happened as a loss. A devastating, painful loss.  Recounting my relentless effort and hope left me with this overwhelming feeling of emptiness.  How could I have given and given with absolutely nothing in return? Why did he never feel or notice how hard I was trying to love him? Was I actually loving him? And then it clicked. Sometimes, the way we learn the true meaning of Unconditional Love- is by experiencing the pain of its absence. This wasn't one big L. My Try, My Consistency, My Persistence...it was all unconditional, always.  This week you will start to see Dick's true colors start to emerge. Lies wrapped in manipulation presenting themself as love are sprinkled all over this episode. You'll meet a few Sugar Daddies, Our Bishop, and find yourself front row to the epic way Dick proposed...   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE! Music and Sound Production: Ashley England Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Surprise! I had fun answering all your questions.  Can’t wait for Tuesday!  See you there, Amanda

Dear Diary (& Listeners), You know how some people say, "God will never give you more than you can handle"? After recording this episode, I found myself thinking about that phrase a lot. The process of outlining my relationship with Dick for this podcast has been filled with sorrow, but it has also brought understanding. There were so many painful moments I experienced during this time that had been subconsciously tucked away in a file cabinet in my mind. Unpacking those file cabinets feels like I am experiencing them again, for the first time, right along with you. I probably have some of the same questions you all are having: Why didn't I just let him leave for good? How many times does Dick have to tell me he doesn't want to be with me before I actually believe him? But the biggest question of them all is... Why didn't leaving him ever cross my mind? So, I did a little soul searching, and what I realized was heart-wrenching. I subliminally laid everything I had at his feet: my money, my family, my love, my support, and my future. I continued to trust him even when he gave me every reason not to. I was scared not to trust. I was scared to lose the ONE thing I had left... Him. God would never give me more than I can handle, right? This week, you'll learn more about my proposal, wedding planning, and events leading up to the big day. We will uncover yet another Sugar Daddy, dissect the gambling more, and experience the worst abandonment up until this point in the story. You'll also begin to understand his explanation behind leaving, followed by our plan to fix the core problem. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music and Sound Production: Ashley England Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary (& Listeners), I cried recording part of this episode.    And it got me thinking... Why did THIS episode make me cry? What is it about my wedding that sparks the tears?   You’d think that reliving the abandonments, the emotional abuse, and all the other subpar efforts confused as love would make me sad...   I know the answer.   This episode didn’t make me cry because I was reflecting on that moment of my wedding ceremony. Tears started flowing in the studio because right then; I felt as if I may never get to experience such a meaningful moment again. I felt hijacked. Such important meaningful moments, all hijacked by a human incapable of love and compassion.   The thing is...it’s all bullshit. We don’t just get ONE shot at happiness. We get as many as we give ourself. So this is me publicly throwing away the self-limiting doubts. I finally feel happy again. I know who Amanda Lynette Arnier is.  I love that bad ass, resilient bitch.  Someone will love me.  Far better than I could ever imagine before.   In this episode you will join me for my beautiful wedding in Sedona, AZ. You will also spend an evening in the emergency room. Followed by a road trip to Colorado, Dick’s self-proclaimed LEAST FAVORITE state. Be sure to share, like, and review. Your feedback and support mean everything.   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music and Sound Production: Ashley England Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

NOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality. Dear Diary (& Listeners), When I tell you I have had the busiest three weeks of my life. I am nowhere close to joking.  You know, sitting back right now with my feet up on my desk and my hair up in a bun- I feel pretty damn accomplished.  I did some shit I didn't even think I was capable of... I just recorded, edited, and fully produced an entire podcast episode BY MY SELF! I put myself out there to create new relationships with actual human people. I gritted my teeth through the discomfort of social anxiety and what I uncovered on the other side is so fucking special.  (Not me basking in the new incredible friendships I have created) Now you're probably like "Wait, Amanda...You're so extroverted. How could you possibly have social anxiety...?" Let me let you in on a little secret.  When you are alienated from everyone you love and continue to self isolate through healing- you straight up lose those skills.  I'm also just going to be blatantly honest... The trauma I endured while with Dick, made me develop an anxious speech pattern where I LONG PAUSE almost every time I speak, when asked a question. I also swear to (Non-Mormon) God, that I developed a stutter.  This is what happens when you are so afraid of constantly saying the wrong thing. Walking on eggshells virtually every second of your life, does crazy shit to your brain. And when you have an immensely unique and complex brain, you need to socialize. Otherwise, you end up in a prison of your own thoughts. It wasn't very fun, but thankfully as you can hear- no more stutter and shorter pauses. WIN. During this episode we dive DEEP into the World of Financial Domination. You will meet Jamie, a client of 9 years and begin to understand the "why" behind this secret fetish lifestyle that so many live behind closed doors. Join me as my two oldest friends and I explore all things FinDom in Episode 5, Sergeant Steroids.   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier, MLS Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

NOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality. Dear Diary (& Listeners), There's a theme this week.  We Teach People How To Treat Us. And while yes, what I taught Dick our entire relationship was that he could walk all over me... My lesson plan is a little different now.  Boundaries are difficult for so many reasons. The scariest part for me always was that I meant well with them, but they were always perceived as mean, cruel, or selfish.  We tend to fall into habits of letting people cross our boundaries to "keep the peace". But let's be honest, PEACE for who? Episode 6 comes with a TRIGGER WARNING. This episode contains discussions about suicide ideations. Listener discretion is advised. If you or someone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts, please seek help immediately. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) or your local crisis hotline. This week you will sit with me some of the darkest times I've ever experienced. I'm not going to lie to you. This isn't something I share easily. I am embarrassed about it. However, just like everything else I am embarrassed of- I know it is something I have to get out of my soul. You will find that all of my fears and assumptions come true in this episode. My false sense of self-esteem comes shattering down. And just when you think the delulu can't get any worse...I sell all my belongings.    Someone asked me this week if I am open to love again...  I giggled. I am love. I don't know any other way to be.    And that is something I will never change about myself. We teach people how to treat us. So if we lead with love, chances are- we just might just end up finding that needle in the hay stack.    Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Production: Amanda L. Arnier, MLS Interviewer: Cousin Riley Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary (& Listeners),  You know the saying "If you don't use it, you lose it"...   First off, I want to go on the record and call BULLSHIT.  Why? I'm glad you asked!    When I first met Dick, he was entranced with my brain. He loved the way I thought, spoke, and saw the world. He would tell me, even as recent as June of 2023- that I was the smartest woman he had ever met.  I ate that shit up.  As our relationship progressed, it seemed that the very thing he loved so much about me, threatened him. He no longer asked my advice about complex matters. My opinions were shot down and even criticized. Which leads me to another question: How do you starve a dog to death?  I know...You're like AMANDA...what?! I listened to a talk Dr. Jordan Peterson gave with Sean & Saxony Whalen the other day. He asked this question and here's why it's relevant.  Starving a dog to death is simple. All you have to do is swat it on its nose with a newspaper every time it goes to eat. After about 50 times, the dog will stop eating and eventually perish.  The same is true for humans.  Dick figuratively swatted me on my nose every time I used my brain in a way that he couldn't. Dissect that how you may; jealousy, dominance, or just plain hatred- it fucked me up.  I found myself in this space where I would ignore my creative thoughts, my opinions, my views, and my expertise. I rarely spoke up and on the rare occasion he would ask me for my advice- I actually found hard to articulate my thoughts.  If you don't use it, you lose it.  That saying scared the SHIT out of me. I thought I would never regain my ability to create complex thought process. It made me sad. It made me scared. It made me a slave to him and his approval.  As I sit here typing to you today, I can proudly affirm that if you don't use it, you won't lose it. My brain is operating at what seems like 150% these days. So much so, that I can see why all of this was entirely necessary.  Cruel. Abusive. Villanous. But 100% necessary for me to become the woman I knew I was destined to be. I had lost my faith. Given up on God simply because years of my prayers weren't answered.  The happiest realization I've had since regaining my functional nerd-brain is that God actually DID answer my prayers. I couldn't see it then, but I see it now. He will never bring you to something; he won't bring you through.  In Episode 7: Rocky-Road Trip you will join my best friend of 20 years, Marissa and I as we navigate leaving Phoenix, AZ to start our cross country road trip. Join us as we talk about this quest to find a less "depressive" home base, what happens along the way, and revisit some topics from past episodes. You will finally get to hear the perspective of someone close to me. And when I say she holds NOTHING back...I mean it.    Forever Speaking My Truth,  Amanda L. Arnier, MLS   If you would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music By: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda Arnier, MLS Guest: Marissa  Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary (& Listeners), I am stressed this week.  I have so many things going at once.  The holidays crept up and I feel like I am burning the candle at both ends.  I've found myself in a strange lull because of the holidays. Everywhere I look someone is experiencing joy and new beginnings.  I held space for myself for a moment, but didn't let it get the best of me. Between family, friends, and Italian Batman- there is so much potential, positivity, and love in my life right now.  Thats why this week it's extra appropriate to introduce you to my Mom for the very first time.  In Episode 8, you will get a first-hand, unfiltered (as always) view as to what Life with Dick looked like from a Mother's perspective.  Join us as this delusional cross-country road trip takes us to Lake Geneva, WI & Huntsville, AL and takes Dick on a Farewell to FinDom Tour all along the East Coast.  Prepare yourself for some SHOCKING confessions.  Oh - and in this Episode, Dick leaves his precious computer unlocked while he goes on a day trip to see a "client" in Reno.  Finally, you're never going to FUCKING guess who calls me...    ** One last thing. If you find yourself feeling down because of the holidays. Seriously- shoot me a message. I'll be the first to remind you that your presence in this World is not only important; it may be the very reason someone else exists...**   Forever Speaking My Truth,  Amanda L. Arnier, MLS     If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Production: Amanda L. Arnier, MLS Interviewer: Tina Scianna Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary (& Listeners),    S U R P R I S E!   You've waited patiently. So without further adeiu...   I'd like to introduce you to Kyle.    Kyle is a past client, friend, and confidante of Dick. He is going to take us to school today on ALL THINGS FINDOM & Taboo. He will answer some of your most asked questions...and give you a look inside what it meant to know Dick, as an openly gay male client.  AND. It's GOOOOOOD. Juicy. Spicy.  The Tea Kettle is Whistling BayBEE.    One thought I'd like to leave you with this week...   We all have a past. We all have baggage that we carry around with us. It gets heavy. I know.  Don't put your bags down. Your bags are what MAKE you... Sit on your floor and invite human beings over to help you unpack them. Speak to people. Leave your house. Write a love letter. Sing loud as fuck in the car.  It's time to live again.   Forever Speaking My Truth,  Amanda L. Arnier, MLS   If you would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music By: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda Arnier, MLS Guest: Kyle Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary (& Listeners), There is so much I want to say.     Today I reflect on the fact that this is the TENTH episode of The Dichotomy Diaries... TEN?! I was so scared to release the TRAILER you guys... I remember recording it over and over again. On my IPHONE of all devices.  Something inside of me knew that this was exactly what I needed to heal, find purpose, and remember the feeling of self-love.   With Christmas right around the corner, I feel more emotional than usual.    I am so PROUD of myself.  I am so HUMBLED with the support I receive from you all.  I am SHOCKED at the amount of listener submissions I receive.  I am NOSTALGIC for the warmth of family tradition around the holiday season. I am DISGUSTED at the attempts of Victim Shaming that happens in our society.  I am MOTIVATED to continue to lead by example for those who have been taken advantage of an abused.   I AM ALL THE THINGS.  And that's probably why I cried during this episode.    In Episode 10 - The House Always Wins, we uncover the truth behind the mysterious Arizona Woman who shared countless hours on the phone with Dick, and all the things associated. We finally move into our BELOVED apartment in the "best part" of town...And Christmas is spent with Dick's family. That holiday was filled with a lot of love. I remember feeling such warmth. However, there was this unshakable feeling that something was wrong...or maybe it was that there was something- that everyone around me knew, but I didn't.    This is my piece of advice for you. Especially after recording this episode... Childhood Trauma, whatever that may be, is NO joke.  If you do not seek to heal or understand your childhood trauma, you WILL carry it into every relationship you have in the future- until you do.  Give your parents grace. They are doing this for the first time too.  And tell your family that you love them as often as you can.    While Christmas may seem like a happy time of year to most; to some, there is a dreaded anticipation around the approach of this holiday. To some, Christmas serves as a stark reminder that the people we love most, are no longer with us.    If you find yourself sad around the Christmas because of the absence of loved ones; I challenge you do at least one thing a day that is in celebration of those gone too soon. Light a candle at church. Play their favorite song in the car. Cook their favorite meal.    The more we keep their memory alive, the more we embrace the feeling of happiness and feel freer to celebrate instead of mourn during Christmastime.    Buon Natale, Amanda Arnier, MLS   If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda Arnier, MLS Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary (& Listeners), We all strive to be the best at something.    For me, it was being a wife, a partner, a team member.  For others it might be more career oriented or status driven.    Not for me.    I've known as long as I can remember that I wanted to be a wife, a mother, and right hand to a fearless teammate who strives for greatness in life.    I've thought about this a lot this past week because as I try to be the best version of myself; I find that I fall short in a lot of areas I once thought I had conquered...   The thing is, I hadn't conquered anything. I was acting like I had. In pure hope that one day I would meet the expectations I and my husband had set out for me. But as it does often in this story- the goalpost kept moving.    And I kept falling short.    It was easier to adopt a  "fake it 'till I make it" mentality than it was to sit with my shortcomings and dissect them.    While we are striving to be the best at whatever that "one thing" might be; there is someone out there looking for the perfect partner for them. Setting exceedingly high standards in the name of self respect or "not settling"...   This could really be the basis on which a lot of relationships fail.    Instead of trying to find or be the perfect partner, I believe that we should love an imperfect partner- perfectly.    That should be the goal. To grow and stretch your beliefs in everything you ever wanted out of life; for the sake of happiness and love.    If you can look at someone who is imperfect and see through the scars and skeletons, and STILL find a way to love them. I think you've beat the game. You win.    In this episode you'll hear pivotal conversations that pave the disastrous road ahead. We will celebrate New Years Eve with friends and finally uncover the reason behind me painting our life so "picture perfect" constantly online.  Be sure to share, like, and review. Your feedback and support mean everything.   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   If you have a similar experience and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda Arnier Guest: Marissa Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary (& Listeners), As I sit here today writing this, it is January 1st, 2024.    A New Year always brings reflection.    I can't help but think about where I was on this exact day last year.    I remember waking up in an empty bed.    I always enjoyed waking up and having the first view of my day be my husbands face. This day was different. The night prior I had felt like we were a team. He was leading with WE. He had outwardly demonstrated what I had been asking for, for so long.    And yet here I was, waking up on the first day of the New Year, wondering where he was...   At this point, I'm sure you won't be shocked to hear that he was naked on camera, doing a video call with one of his regular clients...   It hit me different this morning. So much so that I remember it a year later.    The reality that no matter what had happened yesterday, my current days would most likely always consist of THIS...was horrifying.    I thought I was seeing change in him, but in reality- it was me wishing change on him.    Dick will forever be a Caterpillar person.  And I speak Butterfly Language.    In Episode 12 you will witness Dick's aggression increase incrementally. You'll also join me on the ever-so-frequent rollercoaster of a "Run Up" where Dick will eventually hit a BIG jackpot. We will head to Arizona for my favorite week of the year and return once again as my birthday approaches. Excitement turns to anxiety when I uncover yet another demonstration of his promiscuous personality...   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda Arnier, MLS Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary (& Listeners),    I want to start off by saying Thank You. The Dichotomy Diaries has jumped insane numbers this past week and I have you all to thank for that.    Episode 13 starts off with an overview...and maybe a little sneak peek.   The point that we are at in this story is went mentally things all go down hill for me.    Naturally, this is taxing, but when I tell you it is C O M P L E T E L Y necessary- I mean it.    I am constantly questioned on why I would choose to sit with the bad decisions and pain inflicted on me. It is a very simple answer I will repeat over and over again. TO PROCESS IT.    Unprocessed trauma is and will always be the underlying reason for all the things that go wrong. Choosing to experience pain over immediate pleasure of ignorance takes a self-aware individual.    Are you self-aware?   EP13 - Make a Wish is the story of my 32nd birthday in Arizona for Super Bowl Weekend & the Valentine's Day to follow.    Here's a secret I never admitted to anyone ever...   Each birthday that I spent with Dick, my birthday wish as I blew out the candles was always the same. "Please Heavenly Father (what Mormons refer to God as), make things easier for my husband so that we can have a good life.    I never wished for things to be easier for me.  And that should tell you everything you need to know.   Enjoy and be sure to listen to the entire Outro for some additional sneak peeks that will reinvigorate the marathon listener in you...   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Production: Amanda L. Arnier, MLS Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary (& Listeners),   This episode is a total standout for me. I hardly ever get to geek out about Italian Literature and why it means so much to me. This week, I had this awesome "aha" moment while chatting about my absolute favorite piece of literature.   But hold on tight, 'cause things take a wild turn. We're talking a whopping $14k in medical bills, I manage to rip a door clean off its hinges (yeah, that happened), and guess what? Homelessness decided to make a guest appearance in my life for the first time... Life's got its own plans, right? Wrong. This wasn't fate or left to chance- this was strategic. Calculated.   So, grab your popcorn...this one gets GOOD.   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Production: Amanda L. Arnier, MLS Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary (& Listeners), The flood gates are open and the reflective thoughts are pouring in.    Values. I've been talking a lot about family lately, but what about unique values I desire in a man? I know you'll be shocked to know...(sarcasm) that every single one of these unique values are dead opposite of Dick.    It feels good to think for myself again. I finally have my present and future back.  Le Sigh...   Now I just need to sleep more.    Here's a few Unique Qualities I pulled from a list I wrote tonight...   Dick: Untrustworthy & Secretive I Value: Mystery & Enigma A mysterious aura adds an element of excitement and intrigue. I value a man who has the ability to keep a sense of mystery while still being open and vulnerable.   Dick: Weakness & Inability to Cope I Value: Strength & Resilience There is nothing sexier than physical and emotional strength to navigate challenges. A man who is humbly resilient in the face of adversity, reflecting a capacity to overcome obstacles.   Dick: Absence of Protective Instincts I Value: Guardian-like Qualities A man with protective instincts are key. Having the willingness to be a guardian and support in times of need. A sense of justice and the ability to stand up for what is right.   Dick: Disconnect from Spiritual & Emotional Depth I Value: Spiritual Connection My person has the capacity to connect on a deep, spiritual level while maintaining strong emotional intelligence and empathy for understanding and support of shared inner growth.   Dick: Predictable & Monotonous Behavior I Value: Unpredictable Allure An element of positive unpredictability that adds excitement to the relationship is a must. The distinct allure of this person should keeps the flame of passion perpetually burning.    In Episode 15 I am officially homeless. Well- for a few days anyway. After Dick deploys an atomic bomb in Las Vegas, we are forced to seek refuge in Illinois. (Cue the Country Music) All is going well...I feel my nerves calming and an overwhelming sense of safety being around my family.  It's short lived. SHOCKER.  And guess what..? Dick recants yet another one of HIS decisions. You're going love Episode 15. Grab your popcorn y'all.   BEHOOVE THIS.   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier, MLS Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

Dear Diary (& Listeners),   You ever just want to pack a bag, grab your dogs, and drive to the furthest possible corner of the map and DEEP exhale into the vast nothingness? Yeah...Me too. This is where I am this week. After returning home from an exhausting work trip; the inevitable happened.  I got sick.  And when I say sick, I mean SICK. Influenza A got cha girl in a choke hold. Bang, Bang.  I hit the ground.  Today is the first day in almost a week that I am able to get out of bed and do life.  So that's fun.  And what better a story to lull myself to sleep tonight...than my own.  In Episode 16 you'll join me as I cringingly beg Dick to come back home after abandoning me yet again for Las Vegas. Does he come back? Oh- you bet- but as always, I'm sure you'll never guess how this episode ends.  Buckle your seatbelts.  Bang, Bang.    Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier, MLS Music: Ashley England Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries