In this episode, I open by talking about the big decision to “pull the goalie,” as we called benching our pregnancy defensive line (my birth control pills). It was a momentous moment! And then… the score remained 0-0 for a long, long time. In fact, it still is.

A global pandemic, a foster pup, a couple of job changes, and more… all of that was going on while I undertook both big steps and baby steps (see what I did there?) towards pregnancy and parenthood… As I got to know my body and navigated both feelings and logistics.

So, this episode is a bit of a winding one, all about what 3 years of open-ended “trying” has felt like, emotionally and physically.

Things to think about as you listen:

• What are some assumptions you have around the decision to “try”?
• Have you experienced — or considered the possibility of — “trying” while still feeling ambivalent … and what does that bring up for you: recognition? judgment? confusion? something else?

If you’ve also experienced infertility, or are in the midst of it right now, how did that affect your desire to be a parent?