This Is Actually Happening

Wondery

What if your mother left to follow a cult… or you woke up in a morgue… or if your boat got caught in a storm and began to sink -- what would you do?   This is Actually Happening brings you extraordinary true stories of life-changing events told by the people who lived them. From a man who finds out a celebrity crush isn’t who she seems to a woman stranded in a Mexican desert fighting to survive, these stories will have you on the edge of your seat waiting to hear what happens next.

New episodes come out every Tuesday for free. Listen 1-week early and to exclusive past episodes - all ad-free - with Wondery+ or Amazon Music with a Prime membership or Amazon Music Unlimited subscription.

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Our Editor's Take

"What if" scenarios can be so much fun. What's the craziest thing that could happen? And what would it feel like if it came true? Well, sometimes the craziest things do, in fact, turn out to be true. And what do you do then? You make a podcast, of course! On This is Actually Happening, everyday people share the wildest experiences of their lives. Podcast hosts Whit Missildine and Andrew Waits dig deep and reveal every facet of these not-so-impossible tales.

This is Actually Happening takes these stories and recounts them in detail. Each tale is one-of-a-kind. Some are not always easy to hear. But all are compelling and ask questions that don't always have answers. The best part of this podcast is how the narrators tell the stories. Every account is genuine, with no dramatization and no fictional excerpts. Missildine and Waits introduce the protagonists and ask questions. Most of the time, it's left to these real people-everyday folks-to tell their own stories. Tales of the public are sometimes edited but always personal and moving.

Every story has a reminder of what the world can offer. The tellers have been to the edge and back and want to share their experiences. This Wondery podcast will leave listeners wanting to know more from the moment they hit play

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258: What if you fell in love with a vampire?
Yesterday
258: What if you fell in love with a vampire?
After suffering the horrific abuses of his Southern grandmother, father and mother, a teenage boy discovers his own queer identity through a fantasy world, but when it becomes all too real, everything he believes is called into question.  Today’s episode featured Michael. If you’d like to reach out to him, you can email at vVsanctionVv@hotmail.com. Producers: Whit MissildineContent/Trigger Warnings:  graphic domestic abuse, abuse of a child, mention of rape, mention of drinking blood, explicit language Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcast Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
257: What if you didn't know who to believe?
Nov 29 2022
257: What if you didn't know who to believe?
After leaving the Jehovah’s Witness faith of her childhood, a woman redefines her life with her husband and child and becomes a loving foster parent for many, but as one of her foster children comes of age, the chaos threatens to unravel the entire family. Today's guest requested to remain anonymous. But if you'd like to reach out to her, you can email at Friends13459@gmail.com. Producers: Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli Content/Trigger Warnings:  child endangerment, sexual assault and rape of a minor, drug use, explicit language Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcast Episode Sponsor: Tommy John – www.tommyjohn.com/happening Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Website: thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Sara Marinelli: saramarinelli.com Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
256: What if you prepared your boyfriend's body?
Nov 22 2022
256: What if you prepared your boyfriend's body?
After losing her father at a young age, a woman begins apprenticing as a funeral director, but when tragedy strikes again, the loss takes an exponential toll.    Today’s episode featured Kelsie. You can find out more about her on Instagram and Twitch: @HumanPterodactylContent/Trigger Warnings:  mental illness, suicidal ideation, suicide, graphic medical descriptions, explicit language Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcast Website: thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Jason Blalock: jasonblalock.com Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
255: What if they didn't ask and you couldn't tell?
Nov 15 2022
255: What if they didn't ask and you couldn't tell?
A man growing up in the closet joins the military under “don’t ask, don’t tell” and numbs his identity with alcohol, but after becoming a nurse and after COVID wreaks havoc, his downward spiral hits a new rock bottom that will decide his life or death. Today’s guest requested to remain anonymous, but if you’d like to contact him, you can email at M2980737@gmail.com.Content/Trigger Warnings:  murder of an animal, domestic abuse, miscarriage, bullying, alcoholism, addiction, self-harm, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt, COVID death, explicit language Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcast Website: thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Jason Blalock: jasonblalock.comSponsors: This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp. Give online therapy a try at betterhelp.com/HAPPENING and get on your way to being your best self. Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
254: What if your father annihilated the family?
Nov 8 2022
254: What if your father annihilated the family?
A woman grows up in a home chronically terrified by her father’s abuse, but when her parents split and he starts another family, she learns of the true, horrifying danger she was in her entire life.Today's episode featured Lisa Nikolidakis. You can read much more about this story in her incredible memoir, No One Crosses the Wolf. You can also find out more about Lisa on Instagram @lisanik or on Twitter @lisanikol, and check out her other award-winning essays, at lisanikolidakis.com Content/Trigger Warnings:  domestic violence, sexual abuse, incest, suicidal ideation, eating disorder, self-harm, graphic scrime scene detail, murder, death, explicit language Producers: Whit Missildine Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcast Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.comWondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Uncertain Outcomes” - SkyeVoyager ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
253: What if you couldn't even remember the crash?
Nov 1 2022
253: What if you couldn't even remember the crash?
As a teenager struggling with severe depression and anxiety, a woman finds dance as her only outlet, but on a night that is lost to memory, a horrific accident transforms her body, her brain and her identity. Today's episode featured Desiree Ford. You can find out more about her on Instagram @fesireedord. Out of their experience of the accident, Desiree and her mother have also begun holding workshops and speaking engagements for resilience training to help others adapting to major life changes. You can find out more about this project on Instagram @resilientspirit_ as well as on their website resilientspirit.ca. Content/Trigger Warnings:  mental illness, suicidal ideation, car accident, graphic bodily injury, death, death of an animal, traumatic brain injury, explicit language Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcastThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Andrew Waits: andrdewwaits.com Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
252: What if you watched your mother disappear?
Oct 25 2022
252: What if you watched your mother disappear?
A man tries to put the pieces of his life back together after growing up with a mother who suffered from severe OCD and anorexia. Today’s guest requested to remain anonymous, but if you’d like to reach out to him directly you can email him at viking0531@gmail.com. Content/Trigger Warnings:  severe eating disorder, anorexia, OCD, sexually explicit material, mention of suicide, explicit language Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcastThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Jason Blalock: jasonblalock.com Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Union Flow” – Spuntic ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
251: What if a false allegation stole what you valued most?
Oct 18 2022
251: What if a false allegation stole what you valued most?
A woman diagnosed with bipolar disorder experiences a roller coaster of destroyed relationships and mental storm, but after stabilizing through therapy and medication her mentally compromised mother makes an accusation that cannot be revoked.Content/Trigger Warnings:  mental illness, domestic abuse, explicit language Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcastThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Jason Blalock: jasonblalock.com Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
250: What if a devastating truth only deepened the mystery?
Oct 11 2022
250: What if a devastating truth only deepened the mystery?
Growing up Black and queer in the South, a man finds an identity for himself through the arts and establishes a wonderful marriage with children, until one day, when his husband is late coming home, there’s a ring at the door and his entire life unravels. Content/Trigger Warnings:  use of a derogatory racial slur, use of a derogatory homophobic slur, mention of gun violence, mention of suicide, mental illness, drug use, drug overdose, explicit language Producers: Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcastThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Sara Marinelli: saramarinelli.com Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
249: What if you knew your baby was going to die?
Oct 4 2022
249: What if you knew your baby was going to die?
Coming from a charmed, conservative, Catholic upbringing, a woman must confront her deepest beliefs as she struggles with the reality and implications of the most devastating news a mother can receive. Content/Trigger Warnings:  traumatic pregnancy, death of an infant, explicit language Producer: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcastThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Andrew Waits: andrdewwaits.com Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Uncertain Outcomes” - SkyeVoyager ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
248: What if an invisible disease blew up your life?
Sep 27 2022
248: What if an invisible disease blew up your life?
After surviving a chaotic and abusive upbringing, a woman develops an undiagnosable autoimmune disorder that threatens to take her vision and her livelihood, but when a friend brings a blow-up doll to play a practical joke one night, everything changes. Today’s episode featured Gina Hessburg. You can find out more about her and Rafael on Instagram @blowinguprafael or on her website, blowinguprafael.com. On the website, you can also buy Gina’s book, Blowing Up, featuring her journey with Rafael. Gina is offering listeners to This Is Actually Happening $10 off her book if you use the code HAPPENING. $5 of each sale goes towards organizations that provide patient support and research for treatments for people like Gina. Content/Trigger Warnings:  domestic abuse, mention of suicide, medical trauma, explicit language Producer: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcastThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Andrew Waits: www.andrdewwaits.com Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
247: What if you didn't see the signs?
Sep 20 2022
247: What if you didn't see the signs?
Bill Mitchell built a successful career, marriage and family, but just as his bright and loving daughter graduates from college with big dreams, an unthinkable event irreversibly changes everything. Today’s episode featured Bill Mitchell. Bill has a book and podcast, both called When Dating Hurts. You can find out more about Bill, his book and his podcast, all at whendatinghurts.com. You can also find his book on Amazon.Bill was originally featured on Scott Johnson’s amazing podcast, What Was That Like. If you love This Is Actually Happening, check out What Was That Like, featuring stories from people who have been through something extremely unusual. You’ll hear people talking about being in a plane crash, a mass shooting, a grizzly bear attack, and many more. The guest comes on and tells the details of what happened, first hand. If you like This Is Actually Happening, I know you’ll want to subscribe to What Was That Like. It’s available on any podcast app, or at WhatWasThatLike.com.If you or someone you know is in an abusive relationship, please call the National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) Content/Trigger Warnings:  domestic violence, graphic bodily injury, murder, death, explicit language Producer: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcastThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Jason Blalock: jasonblalock.com Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Union Flow” – Spuntic ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
246: What if you could never be what they wanted?
Sep 13 2022
246: What if you could never be what they wanted?
Always feeling she had failed the ideals of her strict Muslim, South Asian family and community, a woman struggles to navigate trauma, shame and self-expression, when unexpected news forces her into a powerful reckoning.Today‘s episode featured Azzah Ahmad. You can find out more about Azzah by visiting her Instagram page @Lifeazziknowit.Content/Trigger Warnings:  sexual abuse of a minor, suicidal ideation, explicit language Producer: Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcastThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Sara Marinelli: saramarinelli.com  Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
245: What if you were taken to the dark side?
Sep 6 2022
245: What if you were taken to the dark side?
A woman struggling to find herself finally discovers a place where she belongs and forms a deep friendship, but when she experiments with a powerful psychedelic the experience reveals more than she bargained for.Today's episode featured Ash Stryker. You can find out more about Ash and see her illustration and artwork by going to her website: ashstryker.com/ Content/Trigger Warnings:  eating disorder, drug use, drug overdose, hallucinations, explicit language Producer: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcastThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Andrew Waits: andrdewwaits.com/ Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
244: What if you could never make him proud?
Aug 30 2022
244: What if you could never make him proud?
A man struggles to free himself from his father’s iron grip on the family, but when an unsettling truth about his past is revealed, his entire life comes into focus.Today's storyteller was originally featured on the incredible podcast, The Secret Room, created and hosted by Ben Hamm. Ben's guests share stories they've never told before, giving you a front row seat to the hidden lives of people all around you. Ben and I have collaborated before on a previous episode, and if you love This Is Actually Happening, check out The Secret Room, wherever you get your podcasts. Content/Trigger Warnings:  domestic abuse, child abuse, childhood illness, explicit language Producer: Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcastThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Sara Marinelli: saramarinelli.com Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Uncertain Outcomes/Embers” - SkyeVoyager ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
243: What if you signed a billion-year contract?
Aug 23 2022
243: What if you signed a billion-year contract?
After a woman’s Mormon family falls apart following the death of her father, her mother brings her to a Scientology Center where she leaves everything behind.Today’s episode featured Katherine Mcelhinny. If you’d like to reach out to her, you can email at canadiankat9@icloud.com. She also has a gofundme page. If you’d like to donate to her, you can do so here:  Content/Trigger Warnings:  abuse of a minor, parental neglect, sexual assault, suicidal ideation, explicit language Producer: Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcastThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Sara Marinelli: saramarinelli.com Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five" – Chris Zabriskie ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
242: What if you woke up and couldn't move?
Aug 16 2022
242: What if you woke up and couldn't move?
After growing up queer with a complicated father in the 1960s, a man forges his own path, identity and career in the arts, but suddenly, after a routine surgery, he wakes up unable to move. .Today’s episode featured John Killacky. You can find out more about John by going to johnkillacky.com with links to his book, “because art: commentary, critique, & conversation” as well as links to some of his films."I was so used to being adaptive, resilient, always seeing the horizon ahead....The complexity for me in that hospital is that there wasn’t a horizon. I was so stuck in the now of nothing." Content/Trigger Warnings: graphic medical descriptions, paralysis, suicidal ideation, explicit language Producer: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcastThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.comWebsite for Andrew Waits: www.andrdewwaits.comEpisode Sponsor: Betterhelp: betterhelp.com/happening Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link:  to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Union Flow" - Spuntic ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
241: What if you were the other woman?
Aug 9 2022
241: What if you were the other woman?
A woman falls deeply in love with a married man in her close friend’s circle, when suddenly an unthinkable event throws everything into question.   ..“Of all the cruel things for the universe to do…Why? Why on earth would the universe do this, and what is this supposed to teach me? What does it mean?”Today’s guest requested to remain anonymous, but if you’d like to reach out to her, you can email at tues228@gmail.comContent/Trigger Warnings: graphic bodily injury, explicit languageProducer: Whit Missildine Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningTwitter: @TIAHPodcastThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com Wondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at  Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. Transcripts: Full transcripts of each episode are now available on the website, thisisactuallyhappening.com Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
What if you were the one to break the silence? - [Rebroadcast #137]
Aug 2 2022
What if you were the one to break the silence? - [Rebroadcast #137]
“I don’t know what I was thinking but I just kept feeling like the waves of shame because of the shame I made them feel.”Today’s episode featured Kiese Laymon. You can find out more about him and his books at kieselaymon.com.Producer: Whit Missildine Episode Summary: Growing up in a household full of both love and violence in Mississippi, Kiese Laymon struggles with generational trauma, career success, and addiction before finally facing the silences of his past. Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:  Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic violence, physical abuse, assault, explicit languageWondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Re-entry” – Lee Rosevere ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
What if you suddenly felt like a werewolf? - [Rebroadcast - #119]
Jul 26 2022
What if you suddenly felt like a werewolf? - [Rebroadcast - #119]
“It’s like trying to go into like a dark cave with a rope attached to you so that you can find your way back and then losing that the end of the rope.” Producer: Whit Missildine Episode Summary: Following a tumultuous upbringing, a woman begins confronting the complexities of her identity and self-destructive tendencies, when all of a sudden, devastating bouts of Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder begin to consume her life. Social Media:Instagram: @actuallyhappeningThis Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook:   Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com Content/Trigger Warnings: suicidal ideation, domestic abuse, self-harm, mental illness, PMDD, explicit languageWondery Plus: All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are now part of the Wondery Plus premium service. To access the full catalog of episodes, and get all episodes ad free, sign up for Wondery Plus at the Show: Support The Show on Patreon  Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link: to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop.  Intro Music: "Illabye" – TipperMusic Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie ServicesIf you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741See Privacy Policy at and California Privacy Notice at
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