This episode is an unscripted raw in the moment reflection on the role of the Mother figure as my Grandma lays in hospice passing on to the next cycle of life, death and my Mom, who is estranged from me (we haven't spoke since 12/20/20) is sitting beside with her, just minutes away from me in distance, but truly far off with a vast energetic space between us. It is confusing and uneasy to be a Women, especially with the views I have gotten of the checked out, angry, Mom who is plagued with the burdensome task of bringing forth a life that will flat you for what you do, because no matter what life will happen to us and so its not uncommon to just approach things in a do what has always been done style, but it certainly makes for a painful learning curve. I am still trying to untangle and process my relationship with beauty, being a Nice Girl, Virginity, Womenhood, Mothering and Feminine mean. Tools are what are helping me navigate, so listen to the end to learn a chant Ja Ma, breathing to the belly and a guided visual meditation to honor the cycle of life from egg to womb.