Episode 15: Terrible Potential

The Poet (delayed)

Nov 12 2022 • 1 hr 20 mins

TERRIBLE POTENTIAL I see it now For years I only sensed it Or saw the dissipating dust tails of its approach But it filled me with terror And there was no cover or protection So I ran As fast as my child stride could take me Not even knowing what it was – Only that it was coming But that made the fear so much more In my little mind So I ran harder Until I forgot why I was running – Only knowing that I couldn’t stop But I see it now Its shape is fluid and undefined And its terrible potential fills my mind I want to keep running – retreating But it won’t stop and It’s closing the gap and It’s more terrible than I ever thought But its real – I see it now And I know There’s no escape, there never was. But I want to keep running anyway Until it overtakes me I won’t see it coming; it will just happen and be done But my insufficient legs refuse to carry me anymore So I prostrate myself as an offering I know you’re coming, I whisper, And I offer myself willingly This is not defeat, I reassure myself Then lower my eyes And brace for its fury But my mind keeps moving – defiantly It knows truths that my body forgot And reminds me: You were born with claws And they’re with you still – And I remember and feel them They are deep, but I feel them and they are there So, I raise my body from the dirt and My eyes to the distance It is closer now – the gap disappearing But not my fear. My fear is growing (broadcast loudly by my beating heart) But I no longer want to run Nor offer myself willingly Instead, I watch it come and I wait – in fear, true But I wait to receive it And I steady myself. I have claws and I feel them And I will meet it face to face I have terrible potential too I feel it now. I'd love to hear what you have to say about the episode including thoughts on the poetry and the topics that were discussed. You can email me at poetdelayed@gmail.com. If you're interested, my poetry that I read on this podcast was recently published in my book My Mother Sleeps which is available at Amazon.com (http://www.amazon.com/Scott-R.-Edgar/e/B0B2ZR7W41%3Fref=dbs_a_mng_rwt_scns_share) and The King's English Bookshop (https://www.kingsenglish.com/search/author/%22Edgar%2C%20Scott%20R.%22) Special Guest: Justino Foster.