SHOW NOTES:I’m your host, Kelly Ann Snyder, a Christian writer, speaker, and teacher. Grateful to God for rescuing me from the grip of anxiety and fear, I created this podcast, started a blog, launched a small group for women at my church, and wrote my first book titled, Living Perfectly Loved to encourage, equip, and inspire Christian women to live free from fear and full of joy, secure in God’s perfect love. I enjoy fresh flowers, nature walks, decorating my home, sipping tea, and studying God's Word. Visit my website at kellyannsnyder.com to learn more about me and Living Perfectly Loved Ministries, including information that can help you take the next step forward in your faith journey. By signing up for my email list today, you’ll get blog and podcast episodes sent directly to your inbox, and be given the opportunity to learn about other Living Perfectly Loved Ministries offerings made available only to my subscribers. Here’s a link to a free resource I created for signing up: 40 Anxiety-Reducing Self-Care Tips for the WearyYou can also purchase my new book on Amazon today: Living Perfectly Loved: A Christian’s 12-Step Journey to Freedom from the Grip of Anxiety and FearFind me on my Facebook Page @kellyannsnyderauthor and on  my Facebook profile @kellyannsnyderofficial, as well as on my Instagram account @kellyannsnyderofficial. I look forward to connecting with you soon!DISCLAIMER: The content of this podcast is for informational purposes only and is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any condition or disease. This podcast is not a substitute for consultation with a licensed practitioner. Please consult with your physician or healthcare specialist regarding the suggestions and recommendations made in this podcast. The podcast host makes no guarantees concerning the level of success you may experience by following the advice and strategies she has offered, and you accept the risk that results will differ for each individual. The use of this podcast implies your acceptance of this disclaimer.For additional help or resources, I recommend you consider reaching out to a professional Christian counselor or a pastor at a church for guidance in your next steps.

SHOW NOTES:EPISODE SUMMARY: In this episode, I share an excerpt from the introduction of my new book, Living Perfectly Loved, which is focused on our heavenly Father's perfect love as the starting place for our journey from living gripped by anxiety and fear to living perfectly loved. To gain access to the Father's love—a love with the power to drive out fear, according to 1 John 4:18—we must believe in Jesus and have made Him Lord and Savior of our lives.  CONNECT WITH KELLY:I’m your host, Kelly Ann Snyder, a Christian writer, speaker, and teacher. Grateful to God for rescuing me from the grip of anxiety and fear, I created this podcast, started a blog, launched a small group for women at my church, and wrote my first book titled, Living Perfectly Loved, to encourage, equip, and inspire Christian women to live free from fear and full of joy, secure in God’s perfect love. I enjoy fresh flowers, nature walks, decorating my home, sipping tea, and studying God's Word.Visit my website at kellyannsnyder.com to learn more about me and Living Perfectly Loved Ministries, including information that can help you take the next step forward in your faith journey.By signing up for my email list today, you’ll get blog and podcast episodes sent directly to your inbox, and be given the opportunity to learn about other Living Perfectly Loved Ministries offerings made available only to my subscribers. Here’s a link to a free resource I created for signing up: 40 Anxiety-Reducing Self-Care Tips for the WearyYou can also purchase my new book on Amazon today: Living Perfectly Loved: A Christian’s 12-Step Journey to Freedom from the Grip of Anxiety and FearFind me on my Facebook Page @kellyannsnyderauthor and on  my Facebook profile @kellyannsnyderofficial, as well as on my Instagram account @kellyannsnyderofficial. I look forward to connecting with you soon!DISCLAIMER: The content of this podcast is for informational purposes only and is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any condition or disease. This podcast is not a substitute for consultation with a licensed practitioner. Please consult with your physician or healthcare specialist regarding the suggestions and recommendations made in this podcast. The podcast host makes no guarantees concerning the level of success you may experience by following the advice and strategies she has offered, and you accept the risk that results will differ for each individual. The use of this podcast implies your acceptance of this disclaimer.For additional help or resources, I recommend you consider reaching out to a professional Christian counselor or a pastor at a church for guidance in your next steps.

SHOW NOTES:EPISODE SUMMARY: In this episode, I share an excerpt from Step One of my new book, Living Perfectly Loved, where I vulnerably share my story of hitting rock bottom with anxiety and fear. It was in humbling myself and calling upon the Lord for help, that I received the help I needed to break free from the grip of anxiety and fear. It’s hard to admit we have a problem we’re not strong enough to fix on our own, but after hearing my story and learning that from humility comes wisdom (Proverbs 11:2 NIV), I believe you will be inspired to take that step in faith, too. CONNECT WITH KELLY: I’m your host, Kelly Ann Snyder, a Christian writer, speaker, and teacher. Grateful to God for rescuing me from the grip of anxiety and fear, I created this podcast, started a blog, launched a small group for women at my church, and wrote my first book titled, Living Perfectly Loved, to encourage, equip, and inspire Christian women to live free from fear and full of joy, secure in God’s perfect love. I enjoy fresh flowers, nature walks, decorating my home, sipping tea, and studying God's Word.Visit my website at kellyannsnyder.com to learn more about me and Living Perfectly Loved Ministries, including information that can help you take the next step forward in your faith journey.By signing up for my email list today, you’ll get blog and podcast episodes sent directly to your inbox, and be given the opportunity to learn about other Living Perfectly Loved Ministries offerings made available only to my subscribers. Here’s a link to a free resource I created for signing up: 40 Anxiety-Reducing Self-Care Tips for the WearyYou can also purchase my new book on Amazon today: Living Perfectly Loved: A Christian’s 12-Step Journey to Freedom from the Grip of Anxiety and FearFind me on my Facebook Page @kellyannsnyderauthor and on my Facebook profile @kellyannsnyderofficial, as well as on my Instagram account @kellyannsnyderofficial. I look forward to connecting with you soon!DISCLAIMER: The content of this podcast is for informational purposes only and is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any condition or disease. This podcast is not a substitute for consultation with a licensed practitioner. Please consult with your physician or healthcare specialist regarding the suggestions and recommendations made in this podcast. The podcast host makes no guarantees concerning the level of success you may experience by following the advice and strategies she has offered, and you accept the risk that results will differ for each individual. The use of this podcast implies your acceptance of this disclaimer.For additional help or resources, I recommend you consider reaching out to a professional Christian counselor or a pastor at a church for guidance in your next steps.

SHOW NOTES:EPISODE SUMMARY: In this episode, I share an excerpt from Step Two of my new book, Living Perfectly Loved. One way that our pasts creep into our present is through emotional triggers. Something we are experiencing in the present reminds us of something else painful we’ve experienced in the past—causing us to overreact in a big way! As you become aware of your emotional triggers, and when and why they exist, you will be able to begin forming boundary lines around the distinct situations that are triggering your anxiety and fear. Your problems will finally start making sense to you! Using the Emotional Triggers Log located in the appendices of my book (or by downloading the pdf from my website under my book tab, or here), as a tool to track the times, places, people, thoughts, and feelings surrounding your experiences with anxiety and fear, you will gain a better understanding of the root cause of their problem. As you commit to the process of excavating your past, the Lord will begin exposing the dark lies and the hidden places that have kept you bound in fear. Jesus will meet you at your place of wounding, and He will show you that He was there the whole time and it was His perfect love that carried you through. CONNECT WITH KELLY: I’m your host, Kelly Ann Snyder, a Christian writer, speaker, and teacher. Grateful to God for rescuing me from the grip of anxiety and fear, I created this podcast, started a blog, launched a small group for women at my church, and wrote my first book titled, Living Perfectly Loved, to encourage, equip, and inspire Christian women to live free from fear and full of joy, secure in God’s perfect love. I enjoy fresh flowers, nature walks, decorating my home, sipping tea, and studying God's Word. Visit my website at kellyannsnyder.com to learn more about me and Living Perfectly Loved Ministries, including information that can help you take the next step forward in your faith journey. You can also purchase my new book on Amazon today: Living Perfectly Loved: A Christian’s 12-Step Journey to Freedom from the Grip of Anxiety and FearFind me on my Facebook Page @kellyannsnyderauthor and on my Facebook profile @kellyannsnyderofficial, as well as on my Instagram account @kellyannsnyderofficial. I look forward to connecting with you soon!EPISODE RESOURCES: Emotional Triggers Log (FREE PDF Download)DISCLAIMER: The content of this podcast is for informational purposes only and is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any condition or disease. This podcast is not a substitute for consultation with a licensed practitioner. Please consult with your physician or healthcare specialist regarding the suggestions and recommendations made in this podcast. The podcast host makes no guarantees concerning the level of success you may experience by following the advice and strategies she has offered, and you accept the risk that results will differ for each individual. The use of this podcast implies your acceptance of this disclaimer.For additional help or resources, I recommend you consider reaching out to a professional Christian counselor or a pastor at a church for guidance in your next steps.

SHOW NOTES:EPISODE SUMMARY: In this episode, I share an excerpt from Step Three of my new book, Living Perfectly Loved. Do you know that God cares a lot about our thought lives? His Word says, “A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him” (Matthew 12:35 NIV). Until learning the significance of this, I was mostly unaware of my innermost thoughts. I often didn’t realize that it was my thought choices that were holding me captive to fear! Rather than continuing to allow my thoughts to take me captive, I learned that I have the authority to take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ! To help with the process of identifying fear’s lies and replacing them with God’s truth, I’ve provided a link for you to get A Guide to Taking Every Thought Captive: Replacing Worn-Out Lies with God’s Truth, a free resource I’m offering from the appendices of my book (located below in my Episode Resources section). This guide contains some of the most common lies we often fall prey to, along with two truths from Scripture that you can use to combat the lies. Fear is a liar—but by wielding the sword of the Spirit you can overcome every lie the enemy would try to use to tear you down, and begin living daily in the liberty Jesus died to give you. CONNECT WITH KELLY: I’m your host, Kelly Ann Snyder, a Christian writer, speaker, and teacher. Grateful to God for rescuing me from the grip of anxiety and fear, I created this podcast, started a blog, launched a small group for women at my church, and wrote my first book titled, Living Perfectly Loved, to encourage, equip, and inspire Christian women to live free from fear and full of joy, secure in God’s perfect love. I enjoy fresh flowers, nature walks, decorating my home, sipping tea, and studying God's Word. Visit my website at kellyannsnyder.com to learn more about me and Living Perfectly Loved Ministries, including information that can help you take the next step forward in your faith journey.You can also purchase my new book on Amazon today: Living Perfectly Loved: A Christian’s 12-Step Journey to Freedom from the Grip of Anxiety and FearFind me on my Facebook Page @kellyannsnyderauthor and on my Facebook profile @kellyannsnyderofficial, as well as on my Instagram account @kellyannsnyderofficial. I look forward to connecting with you soon!EPISODE RESOURCES: A Guide to Taking Captive Every Thought: Replacing Worn-Out Lies with God’s Truth (FREE PDF Download)DISCLAIMER: The content of this podcast is for informational purposes only and is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any condition or disease. This podcast is not a substitute for consultation with a licensed practitioner. Please consult with your physician or healthcare specialist regarding the suggestions and recommendations made in this podcast. The podcast host makes no guarantees concerning the level of success you may experience by following the advice and strategies she has offered, and you accept the risk that results will differ for each individual. The use of this podcast implies your acceptance of this disclaimer.For additional help or resources, I recommend you consider reaching out to a professional Christian counselor or a pastor at a church for guidance in your next steps.

SHOW NOTES: EPISODE SUMMARY: In this episode, I share an excerpt from Step Four of my new book, Living Perfectly Loved. We are all in a process of loosening our grip on the things of this world. Learning to trust God with the things He calls us to release into His strong, loving, and capable hands, is often God’s way of teaching us to rely on Him alone for our every need and to shift our focus from the temporary things of this world to eternity. Ultimately, we learn that the things God will call us to surrender now are small in comparison to the life He wants to bless us with. The abundant life—love, freedom, blessings, joy, peace, and the riches of God’s glory—is for us! Only in learning to trust God, surrender and live for Christ, will you experience true freedom from fear and fullness of joy. One day we will depart from this world and we will finally have to surrender it all. Until then, we should strive to keep an eternal perspective and an open hand. We truly have nothing to lose and everything to gain!CONNECT WITH KELLY: I’m your host, Kelly Ann Snyder, a Christian writer, speaker, and teacher. Grateful to God for rescuing me from the grip of anxiety and fear, I created this podcast, started a blog, launched a small group for women at my church, and wrote my first book titled, Living Perfectly Loved, to encourage, equip, and inspire Christian women to live free from fear and full of joy, secure in God’s perfect love. I enjoy fresh flowers, nature walks, decorating my home, sipping tea, and studying God's Word.Visit my website at kellyannsnyder.com to learn more about me and Living Perfectly Loved Ministries, including information that can help you take the next step forward in your faith journey.By signing up for my email list today, you’ll get blog and podcast episodes sent directly to your inbox, and be given the opportunity to learn about other Living Perfectly Loved Ministries offerings made available only to my subscribers. Here’s a link to a free resource I created for signing up: 40 Anxiety-Reducing Self-Care Tips for the WearyYou can also purchase my new book on Amazon today: Living Perfectly Loved: A Christian’s 12-Step Journey to Freedom from the Grip of Anxiety and FearFind me on my Facebook Page @kellyannsnyderauthor and on my Facebook profile @kellyannsnyderofficial, as well as on my Instagram account @kellyannsnyderofficial. I look forward to connecting with you soon!DISCLAIMER: The content of this podcast is for informational purposes only and is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any condition or disease. This podcast is not a substitute for consultation with a licensed practitioner. Please consult with your physician or healthcare specialist regarding the suggestions and recommendations made in this podcast. The podcast host makes no guarantees concerning the level of success you may experience by following the advice and strategies she has offered, and you accept the risk that results will differ for each individual. The use of this podcast implies your acceptance of this disclaimer.For additional help or resources, I recommend you consider reaching out to a professional Christian counselor or a pastor at a church for guidance in your next steps.

SHOW NOTES: EPISODE SUMMARY: In this episode, I share an excerpt from Step Five of my new book, Living Perfectly Loved. Jesus gave His life so that all might be saved and live free from anything that would try to keep them in bondage. He took the punishment that causes fear so that we would no longer need to be afraid. Why then, as believers, are many of us crawling through this life on our bellies unable to rise above our fears? Is it possible that we’ve failed to see Jesus for who He really is—our Chain Breaker? When it comes to anxiety and fear, the bottom line is this: without Jesus, there is reason to fear. However, when they have been washed in His blood, clothed in His righteousness, and covered by His perfect love, there is nothing left to fear! You can believe, without doubting, that Jesus has the power to free you. In His power, you can rise up from the ashes of defeat, shake loose your chains, straighten your crown, and begin to confidently walk out your victory over fear God has promised! CONNECT WITH KELLY: I’m your host, Kelly Ann Snyder, a Christian writer, speaker, and teacher. Grateful to God for rescuing me from the grip of anxiety and fear, I created this podcast, started a blog, launched a small group for women at my church, and wrote my first book titled, Living Perfectly Loved, to encourage, equip, and inspire Christian women to live free from fear and full of joy, secure in God’s perfect love. I enjoy fresh flowers, nature walks, decorating my home, sipping tea, and studying God's Word.Visit my website at kellyannsnyder.com to learn more about me and Living Perfectly Loved Ministries, including information that can help you take the next step forward in your faith journey. Here’s a link to a free resource I created for signing up for my email list: 40 Anxiety-Reducing Self-Care Tips for the WearyYou can also purchase my new book on Amazon today: Living Perfectly Loved: A Christian’s 12-Step Journey to Freedom from the Grip of Anxiety and FearFind me on my Facebook Page @kellyannsnyderauthor and on my Facebook profile @kellyannsnyderofficial, as well as on my Instagram account @kellyannsnyderofficial. I look forward to connecting with you soon!EPISODE RESOURCES: A Biblical Guide to Spiritual Deliverance E-Book: https://kellyannsnyder.ck.page/products/a-biblical-guide-to-spiritual-deliveranceDISCLAIMER: The content of this podcast is for informational purposes only and is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any condition or disease. This podcast is not a substitute for consultation with a licensed practitioner. Please consult with your physician or healthcare specialist regarding the suggestions and recommendations made in this podcast. The podcast host makes no guarantees concerning the level of success you may experience by following the advice and strategies she has offered, and you accept the risk that results will differ for each individual. The use of this podcast implies your acceptance of this disclaimer.For additional help or resources, I recommend you consider reaching out to a professional Christian counselor or a pastor at a church for guidance in your next steps.

SHOW NOTES: EPISODE SUMMARY: In this episode, I share an excerpt from Step Six of my new book, Living Perfectly Loved. “You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you” (Isaiah 26:3 NIV).Jesus is the anchor for our souls. In the storms of life, or whenever we begin to feel overwhelmed, anxious, or afraid, we can retreat to God unashamed and He will restore us to perfect peace in His presence. I’ve given practical suggestions for entering God’s presence. The when, where, and how of your encounter with God may be vastly different from that of someone else—and that’s okay! What’s most important is that you experience Him—first by entering into His presence with thanksgiving and praise; then by taking time to sit at His feet, in His Word and in prayer. He will refill your tank that’s been emptied by the day’s demands, refresh your spirit, and strengthen your faith. We will find comfort in knowing we serve a God who is unafraid in our fear, all powerful in our weakness, and completely in control when life feels totally out of control. CONNECT WITH KELLY: I’m your host, Kelly Ann Snyder, a Christian writer, speaker, and teacher. Grateful to God for rescuing me from the grip of anxiety and fear, I created this podcast, started a blog, launched a small group for women at my church, and wrote my first book titled, Living Perfectly Loved, to encourage, equip, and inspire Christian women to live free from fear and full of joy, secure in God’s perfect love. I enjoy fresh flowers, nature walks, decorating my home, sipping tea, and studying God's Word.Visit my website at kellyannsnyder.com to learn more about me and Living Perfectly Loved Ministries, including information that can help you take the next step forward in your faith journey.By signing up for my email list today, you’ll get blog and podcast episodes sent directly to your inbox, and be given the opportunity to learn about other Living Perfectly Loved Ministries offerings made available only to my subscribers. Here’s a link to a free resource I created for signing up: 40 Anxiety-Reducing Self-Care Tips for the WearyYou can also purchase my new book on Amazon today: Living Perfectly Loved: A Christian’s 12-Step Journey to Freedom from the Grip of Anxiety and FearFind me on my Facebook Page @kellyannsnyderauthor and on my Facebook profile @kellyannsnyderofficial, as well as on my Instagram account @kellyannsnyderofficial. I look forward to connecting with you soon!EPISODE RESOURCES: Living Perfectly Loved PlaylistDISCLAIMER: The content of this podcast is for informational purposes only and is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any condition or disease. This podcast is not a substitute for consultation with a licensed practitioner. Please consult with your physician or healthcare specialist regarding the suggestions and recommendations made in this podcast. The podcast host makes no guarantees concerning the level of success you may experience by following the advice and strategies she has offered, and you accept the risk that results will differ for each individual. The use of this podcast implies your acceptance of this disclaimer.For additional help or resources, I recommend you consider reaching out to a professional Christian counselor or a pastor at a church for guidance in your next steps.

SHOW NOTES: EPISODE SUMMARY: In this episode, I share an excerpt from Step Seven of my new book, Living Perfectly Loved. “See, I lay a stone in Zion, a tested stone, a precious cornerstone for a sure foundation; the one who relies on it will never be stricken with panic” (Isaiah 26:18 NIV).God will restore us to perfect peace anytime we enter into His presence. However, if every time we leave the safety of our prayer closets we find ourselves stricken with panic, we must then ask ourselves—have I truly learned to rely on Jesus Christ the rock of my salvation as my one sure foundation? To remain free from anxiety and fear and to continue growing in faith, we not only need to prioritize spending consistent time in God’s presence, we must also build our identity and secure our faith in Christ by growing deeply rooted in His love. As believers, the foundation of our faith has already been laid. Now we must learn to rely on it—to trust in God’s unfailing love. CONNECT WITH KELLY: I’m your host, Kelly Ann Snyder, a Christian writer, speaker, and teacher. Grateful to God for rescuing me from the grip of anxiety and fear, I created this podcast, started a blog, launched a small group for women at my church, and wrote my first book titled, Living Perfectly Loved, to encourage, equip, and inspire Christian women to live free from fear and full of joy, secure in God’s perfect love. I enjoy fresh flowers, nature walks, decorating my home, sipping tea, and studying God's Word.Visit my website at kellyannsnyder.com to learn more about me and Living Perfectly Loved Ministries, including information that can help you take the next step forward in your faith journey.By signing up for my email list today, you’ll get blog and podcast episodes sent directly to your inbox, and be given the opportunity to learn about other Living Perfectly Loved Ministries offerings made available only to my subscribers. Here’s a link to a free resource I created for signing up: 40 Anxiety-Reducing Self-Care Tips for the WearyYou can also purchase my new book on Amazon today: Living Perfectly Loved: A Christian’s 12-Step Journey to Freedom from the Grip of Anxiety and FearFind me on my Facebook Page @kellyannsnyderauthor and on my Facebook profile @kellyannsnyderofficial, as well as on my Instagram account @kellyannsnyderofficial. I look forward to connecting with you soon!DISCLAIMER: The content of this podcast is for informational purposes only and is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any condition or disease. This podcast is not a substitute for consultation with a licensed practitioner. Please consult with your physician or healthcare specialist regarding the suggestions and recommendations made in this podcast. The podcast host makes no guarantees concerning the level of success you may experience by following the advice and strategies she has offered, and you accept the risk that results will differ for each individual. The use of this podcast implies your acceptance of this disclaimer.For additional help or resources, I recommend you consider reaching out to a professional Christian counselor or a pastor at a church for guidance in your next steps.

SHOW NOTES: EPISODE SUMMARY: In this episode, I share an excerpt from Step Eight of my new book, Living Perfectly Loved. “Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong” (1 Corinthians 16:13 NIV).It is through the testing and refining of our faith that the Lord will prepare us for new opportunities, new responsibilities, and change. You may be going through what is known as the refiner’s fire, but God will use this time of trials and testing to strengthen your faith so that you will not fall apart when He promotes you to a position that will require a greater level of faith to sustain you, such as a new kingdom assignment where you may come face to face with significant spiritual warfare. The testing of your faith will produce perseverance in you—a supernatural strength to stand firm on the promises of God amidst even the most severe opposition. And by perseverance, I mean true grit!In this episode I will reveal four ways you can practically fix your eyes on Jesus to help you keep the faith in the wait when your circumstances are pushing you to give up. With hope-filled eyes of faith, fixed on Jesus, you will begin to see God working and moving in your life in ways that cannot yet be seen with your eyes of flesh—giving you a better understanding of who God is, what His will is, and what His plans and purposes are for your life. God will make a way for you where there seems to be no way. CONNECT WITH KELLY: I’m your host, Kelly Ann Snyder, a Christian writer, speaker, and teacher. Grateful to God for rescuing me from the grip of anxiety and fear, I created this podcast, started a blog, launched a small group for women at my church, and wrote my first book titled, Living Perfectly Loved, to encourage, equip, and inspire Christian women to live free from fear and full of joy, secure in God’s perfect love. I enjoy fresh flowers, nature walks, decorating my home, sipping tea, and studying God's Word.Visit my website at kellyannsnyder.com to learn more about me and Living Perfectly Loved Ministries, including information that can help you take the next step forward in your faith journey. Here’s a link to a free resource I created for signing up: 40 Anxiety-Reducing Self-Care Tips for the WearyYou can also purchase my new book on Amazon today: Living Perfectly Loved: A Christian’s 12-Step Journey to Freedom from the Grip of Anxiety and FearFind me on my Facebook Page @kellyannsnyderauthor and on my Facebook profile @kellyannsnyderofficial, as well as on my Instagram account @kellyannsnyderofficial. I look forward to connecting with you soon!DISCLAIMER: The content of this podcast is for informational purposes only and is not intended to diagnose, treat, cure, or prevent any condition or disease. This podcast is not a substitute for consultation with a licensed practitioner. Please consult with your physician or healthcare specialist regarding the suggestions and recommendations made in this podcast. The podcast host makes no guarantees concerning the level of success you may experience by following the advice and strategies she has offered, and you accept the risk that results will differ for each individual. The use of this podcast implies your acceptance of this disclaimer.For additional help or resources, I recommend you consider reaching out to a professional Christian counselor or a pastor at a church for guidance in your next steps.