Nicole Philips' life looks perfect on social media. She has a beautiful daughter, loving husband, a stunning home and a booming following. She looks like she has it all, but behind those squares lies the truth; Nicole is a woman in pain. She feels fear and sadness simultaneously, the feelings of unworthiness and doubt are her constant companions. Her life reaches a critical point when she made an almost irreversible decision. This is her story told in her owns words of her journey through hell and how she is finding her way back home.