There is so much stigma and shame attached to postpartum depression many women  don't get help.  It is a big, horrible secret they may even keep even from their husbands.  It can be hard to understand how a mother wouldn't love her child  from the moment they're  born. But as many as 1./4 of women suffer with postpartum depression. When Jessica Gale Friesen had her first baby she thought she'd love him unconditionally. But postpartum depression stopped her from bonding.  Jessica has written a book about her experience - This Will Not Break Me.